I used to say, "It is so hard to be obedient." I realized that by me saying that "it was so hard"that I was making it really difficult to change. Words have power! I'm not making an excuse for myself. I own all of my mess ups and disobedience. I sin and fall short of His glory every day. We all do! I caution you; however, to not do what I did. Since it was written: "We all sin and fall short of His glory," I subconsciously and even consciously chose to keep my sins alive.
Through my baptism and identification with the death of Jesus, I died for sin. This is so because Jesus died for our sins. It is imperative to understand that since I acknowledge that Jesus died for my sins, sin no longer has power over me. The key is to recognize and acknowledge the miracle of Jesus' death and resurrection that saved us from sin, for sin leads us to death.
According to Romans 6:10-12,
The death He died, He died to sin once for all; but the life He lives, He lives to God. In the same way, count yourselves dead to sin but alive to GOD in Christ Jesus. Therefore, do not let sin reign in your mortal body so that you obey its evil desires.
There should come a point in time when we become stronger in our commitment to please GOD and live a godly life. We may not ever stop sinning but we should sin a whole lot less since sanctification became possible through Christ Jesus!
I'm still not perfect. No human is perfect. Only Jesus was perfect while He was walking among us. Jesus' walk, crucifixion, and resurrection makes it possible for us to be better and do better as people. After all, in being a disciple of Christ, it is important to look like a disciple of Christ.
I realize that I don't look too much like Christ. I made a new commitment to change for GOD and for the kingdom of GOD. Now, give me some grace because you may see me fall but I will get back up. If you see me change with all my traumas and sins, perhaps someone else will believe that they can change too. True change only comes from seeking GOD. GOD sees everything we do! I don't want to keep hurting Jesus my whole life, and I do want to go to heaven when I die.
Here I am purposely engaged in living an inspired life!